2013

Happy new year everyone!!

Here's a quote for all of us to ponder..

-A <3

“Tomorrow, is the first blank page of a 365 page book. Write a good one.”

— Brad Paisley

Somebody Save Me

I'm dying to see his face and feel his lips on mine.

I'm still dreaming of the day he'll come and save me from the lunacy life's giving me.

Every tick of the clock makes me impatient to heed him closer and never let him go...

-A <3

Untitled

Here I am again, making myself stupid thinking of you.

How I wish you think of me too.

I'ts not so long since we drifted apart,

and the space that was once yours is still empty.

I've met a lot of people who tried to mend my broken heart

but none of them could fill the emptiness.

I wish you're happy wherever you are.

I don't want to be drowned in an ocean of tears.

But I don't know how to get over you.

You've done a great job teaching me how to love.

But you failed to teach me how to forget.

-A <3

I Miss You

My words are deep as my thoughts get steep.

Haven't I been wasted with nights of no sleep?

Gone are the days of sweet forever,

   today's nothing more than a game over.

You've won and I lost,

   but I'm willing to bring everything back even at my life's cost.

You can't run away from me that fast,

   not until my breath's gone to last.

I know of a place where you've come to hide,

   where thoughts of me are left snide.

You're just too dumb to realize,

   that I was too smart for all your lies.

Hell! I am at a loss for words to say,

   why can't you just come back to me and stay?

I know sometimes I'm stubborn as a child,

   but isn't that the reason why it's me you've liked?

I know you've had enough,

   but don't you wish the sound of my laugh?

You promised me happiness,

   but why is it I'm reaping sadness?

Life is really so unfair!

   why can't I have someone better?

I thought we'll stay forever,

   but now I realized it's so never!

-A <3

Looking Back...

So, as I was leafing through the pages of my old composition book, I realized that apart from being sooo melodramatic, I was also really talented back then. Haha! Just kidding!

*crickets*

Pouts.

Yeah, yeah. I know. I've got a retarded sense of humor.

Sigh.

But that's not the point of this post.

Let me just share some of what I've written.

I've got to warn you first, though.

Those were a product of my so-called "broken heart" back then.

Ugh! Forgive me for all the dramas. =/

So, yeah. Just be prepared for the posts that're coming.

Sorry for the bitterness, awkwardness, and awful lot of "achy-breaky" heart antics from my teenage years.

So here goes...

It's 'coz I've Got Nothing to Blog About

Right Through the Heart

"...aayawan mo ang isang tao hindi dahil pagod ka na, kundi dahil nawawalan ka na ng dahilan o paraan para gustuhin pa sya."

Lucid Dreaming

I really really really have tried it many times but I always lose consciousness before I even realize it.. Sigh.

Say I love You

Reading manga to kill time.. \^_^/

"People betray each other all the time and at school it's just a bunch of idiots who need someone to bully...

...They call you when it suits them but when you call them they don't come."

 

What Your Room Says About You

#9 Hoarders

When you become a hoarder your room has piles and piles of stuff you will never get rid of, nor do you want to get rid of. It shows how possessive a person is and how they can not let go of the past, even when it is just junk.

(Source: tinybytes.me)

OMFG! This is so just me!

Bakit Ako Single?

I was running out of topics to write about, and as I was browsing the contents of some random website, I stumbled into a topic entitled "Bakit Single ang mga Single?" and there was like, maybe top ten reasons listed. Some of which, I can't relate to. So I thought I'd also make a blog post about my reasons for being single. So here goes...

5. It is my choice.

    Right, so yeah.. No further explanations. :p

4. I'm super busy.

    So busy that I've got no time to socialize and meet new people.

3. I've got no suitors. :(

    Maybe it's a product of having no social life and having a few acquaintances.

2. I still am not able to find Mr. Right.

    Lamest excuse I can think of. Sorry! ^_^v

1. I don't see myself having a husband and children in the future.

    I don't know, I guess I am never ready to be in a relationship. Ever.

So you see? These are the reasons why. I am not closing any doors for some possibility though. The reasons aren't absolute. Who knows? Maybe two or five years from now, what's written on this list might be changed.

-A <3

15-12-2012

Delusional

Love me or hate me,

I don't like it when people stare at me.

It's as if I'm someone from their favorite movie,

or maybe some random goddess from the Greek mythology.

You're right at some point, baby.

I'll fail at some psych. test, probably.

I seem to be so full of myself.

I tend to be delusional, mind if you lend me help?

I'm broken at some point.

You'll probably judge me, or you won't.

What you think, I really don't mind.

For such criticisms, I seem to be blind.

-A <3

14-12-2012

Sayonara

Earphones on, volume's up.

Ignoring the world and all its bluffs.

Lying here all alone,

thinking of things that are still unknown.

I can't still fathom why you left,

breaking me and the promises you kept.

I know I shouldn't have trusted you from the start,

and it's wrong to blame you for my shattered heart.

The things we had wasn't mine to keep,

they're better be buried more than six feet deep.

Remembering them just makes me sick,

I wish I could just forget you with a wand's flick.

So farewell now my love.

I'm setting you free, free as a dove.

May you find what you're looking for,

and don't you ever dare come knocking at my door.

Forgiveness is yet to come,

but don't expect me to spare you some.

Go on now and don't look back.

Whomever you may love, I'm wishing you luck.

-A <3

13-12-2012

Random Thought

I really like how it feels when I sharpen a pencil and I get to turn on a new page of my composition book.

*sigh*

A Moment of Silence

Crickets humming...

Insects buzzing...

My ears are ringing,

with thoughts in my mind swirling.

I'm singing a song,

and I wonder to whom it belongs.

Pouring my heart out with every word,

expressing the feelings I kept untold.

I'm not that good at words,

forgive me for being cold.

This mask I wear,

hides the feelings I continue to bear.

I thank God for this moment of silence.

In this state of noiselessness, I find peace and happiness.

My soul seeks for solace,

I find it in a moment of silence.

-A <3

12/11/12

Note to Self

You're doing great!

Just don't mind what other people think.

The Time You Enjoy Wasting is Not Wasted Time

If you had forever, you could check out every single piece of straw in the haystack, one by one, to see if it was the needle."

-Jacob Black, Breaking Dawn

I've got a lot of free time and I've got nothing to do.

So I'm re-reading The Twilight Saga: Breaking Dawn for the nth time.

-A <3

Forgive me

I'm going through something and I'm not myself lately so I am not able to post updates that are worth reading.

Sorry!!

-A <3